Month: May 2014
the question : No matter how content you are with your present life, you always have to dig into your past. Why in the world you always do that? Causing pain and sorrows upon yourself and people around.
That one moment that you could have easily avoided but instead you choose to maneuver it. You should have realized that somethings (read people) are not present in your life for a reason and reaching out for them will only make matters worse.
Yes, I agree the past haunts sometimes, it does to everyone. But there is a definite reason it is called “past”, and no matter how hard you try they will never be your present, leave alone the future. For the sanity of yourself and others get a life and stop messing.
Its better you live in your present and move with the flow
reasons: Yes I know why I dive into my past, because she was the only good thing that happened to me back in the school days (might also include college). School was really a tough time for me for I hardly made any friends. People used to follow others around (usually ones who had good marks or were some sort of funny or witty) I was neither of them in fact I was total foolish and dumb. Back then also I had this thought why I should follow other, go WHERE EVER they go? They weren’t my friends in ant sense they were just my batch mates.
These apart from many were/are the reasons I keep poking into my past hoping against hope to relive some/any of the those moments. But recent events have made me realize that other party regards me as retard (may be pervert)
So, its summer again and I thought of trying my luck at getting a internship. I started my search (just like last winter) and over a period of a month, wrote as many mails as I could ;).
Of all 3 responded for a telephonic conversation. The first one was the best where I had expectations (both from the employer and from myself) . I lived upon mine and performed all the tasks but as it turned out there were people better than me (thats what they told) . At the end of the day, I never got the opportunity. From then I got 2 more rejections.
And in the last interview it happened that I was exposed to questions (about technology stacks) that I never cared to know. Although I realized I had messed up the situation here as well but there were many positive points to consider. I will be working on them in the future to improve my knowledge base.
The same thing happened last winter as well but eventually I ended up with two internships. Thats because I was determined that I am good enough to be hired. I still believe but I need to focus more on my startup Geeklab. We will be soon starting operations.