the question : No matter how content you are with your present life, you always have to dig into your past. Why in the world you always do that? Causing pain and sorrows upon yourself and people around.
That one moment that you could have easily avoided but instead you choose to maneuver it. You should have realized that somethings (read people) are not present in your life for a reason and reaching out for them will only make matters worse.
Yes, I agree the past haunts sometimes, it does to everyone. But there is a definite reason it is called “past”, and no matter how hard you try they will never be your present, leave alone the future. For the sanity of yourself and others get a life and stop messing.
Its better you live in your present and move with the flow
reasons: Yes I know why I dive into my past, because she was the only good thing that happened to me back in the school days (might also include college). School was really a tough time for me for I hardly made any friends. People used to follow others around (usually ones who had good marks or were some sort of funny or witty) I was neither of them in fact I was total foolish and dumb. Back then also I had this thought why I should follow other, go WHERE EVER they go? They weren’t my friends in ant sense they were just my batch mates.
These apart from many were/are the reasons I keep poking into my past hoping against hope to relive some/any of the those moments. But recent events have made me realize that other party regards me as retard (may be pervert)